so here goes rant time!!!
Feel totally crap today its like all the point in everything has just gone all the effort i put into my recovery feels completely pointless I selfharmed which makes me feel like a huge failure!!!
I JUST WANT TO FEEL NORMAL !!

I am so done of all the crap from my past dominating my future. I should be going uni next week but no Im not and have no idea what to do instead its just a another reminder that everything is pretty crap. Im turning 20 on thursday and dont no i feel about it cant make sense of how i am feeling arghhh

However on a more positive note - i went to alton towers for the first time which was soooo good

I was soo bloody scared the first time I rode air my face was a picture :)